two poems in process

I. old love

You came through the door from a walk in the woods,

right hand cupped in front of you, 

your eyes trained on its freight.

Gently, you spilled out five ruby red berries onto the counter where I was working.

“For you,” you said, and walked away.

II. childhood summer

Flashlight in one hand, coffee can in the other

We knelt in the wet grass at the bottom of the long, sloping yard,

             spread out like a line of soldiers ready to advance.

Scanning between the blades of grass we looked for the long, fat

            lengths of night crawlers, come above ground in the safety of the dark.

We made our way, up the hill, shushing each other, slapping mosquitos,

and dreaming of the fish that we’d eat for breakfast- if it all worked out.

There’s a trick to catching nightcrawlers: 

  a quick pounce that pins the worm to the ground

                        and then a pause, waiting for its tensed body to relax.

That is the moment to pull, ever so gently, 

extracting the fat worm from its hole in one piece.

Too slow to pounce, and the worm slips underground.

Too fierce a grab, and the worm becomes two wriggling pieces, 

too small for any fishhook.

By the time we get to the top of the hill

  our knees are grass stained,

  our legs covered with mosquito welts

  but the coffee can is full of



wriggling worms

just ready for the morning’s fishhook 

on the dock

  at dawn.

catching up

nearing the six month mark of living a vegan life


why I sleep outside

“Keeping an Eye Out.”
Spotted in a Mechanicsburg back alley

I sat down yesterday with a stack of my “weekly sheets” to review the menus from almost six months of vegan living. Every week (when I am home and not traveling) I make up a menu on Monday morning, head to the store and generally spend most of the afternoon getting our meals in line for the week ahead. Because I work some evenings and, on nights when I am home don’t roll in until after 6:00, it is a help to have things in progress before it’s “hurry up and cook” time.

I was scanning my weekly sheets to look for some ideas of what to make over this holiday weekend. We’ve had some really great meals in the past six months- and some real duds, too. As I’ve noted in this blog before, some of the best vegan dishes, in my opinion, are ones that don’t try to be something that substitutes for something in the meat kingdom- ie: burgers, hotdogs, chicken nuggets. We’ve tried all of these and, even though I return to them as last-minute go tos (they are generally processed and the equivalent of vegan “fast food”), they aren’t my favs.

Some of the duds in the past six months, in case you are curious, have been momos -whole wheat steamed buns with cabbage filling- (the dough was rubbery and dense), rice balls stuffed with veggies and vegan cheese (too much rice, not enough filling), vegan potato “cheese sauce” (a gummy, gloppy mess) and vegan carrot cake with cashew frosting (the cake needed some sugar and the frosting was… slimy.)

Some of my favorite dishes in these past six months have been tacos (so many different ways to do these with vegan fillings including my favorite chopped mushroom-walnut mixture), Thai red and green vegetable curries, Asian inspired meals featuring tofu and lots of great steamed and stir fried veggies, Indian inspired meals like dal and mujadara and saag paneer made with a tofu-based paneer. I also love, love, love, tempeh and broccoli with soy over brown rice, and good old rice & beans in many variations. A recent not-good-for-you indulgence that I invented is a vegan “reuben:” tempeh that is skillet browned and then made into a grilled sandwich with sauerkraut, a vegan Russian dressing, and vegan cheese. So good.

It turns out that Oreos are vegan. And tater tots. And Oat milk makes a pretty good fake ice cream.

And so, it’s been great. Do I feel different? A couple of months ago when we were solidly into this new plant-based lifestyle and really eating well, I did feel good. Great, even. I lost about 15 pounds and felt “clean.” Since then, a host of travel and meetings have befallen me and I have been subject to hotel/conference facility vegan menus and I have eaten too many bagels with vegan cream cheese or peanut butter in my car while driving to the next thing. This has shown me that to be committed to an eating style that is not universal or convenient has to be intentional and well planned or, like everyone else, a host of bad habits and poor choices are easily picked up.

Finally, I have been touched by the parishes that have caught wind of my new plant-based way of life and I am moved by the coffee hours that now have vegetables and hummus and fruit. One parish went all out and created an all-vegan sit down brunch for me with homemade waffles and a tater tot casserole with plant-based sausage and cheese. Wow. Thank you. I am humbled by this and grateful and… I always am happy to carry a protein bar in my pocketbook for other times.

why I sleep outside

I am a fan of New Year’s resolutions.

Most years I end up returning to the same ones- read more, cook less so I throw away fewer leftovers, write more letters (a noble idea but I fail at this every year).

Last year- at the beginning of 2021- I vowed to camp out at least one night per month. I didn’t make it, but I got several trips in the log book. This year- 2022- I decided to try again. The idea of camping out in the wild was scaled back to just sleeping out-of-doors, even if it meant just pitching my tent in the backyard, and so it was “2022: Game On.” Jan. Feb. March. April, and, just last night: May. Done.

Here’s why I love it: there is a sense of peacefulness being enclosed in a snug shelter. I can “feel” the woods or forest or trees in the yard around me, and get a sense of being embraced by nature. In my tent, I can hear the slightest of sounds: squirrels making their way to bed, industrious bees finishing up their nectar gathering for the day, the snapping of twigs in the woods under the feet of… foxes… deer… opposum, ground hog. We have lots of wildlife in our back woods and even from the edge of the yard, I feel a part of it.

Last night I lay in my tent with the side panel of the rain fly rolled back so I could see up into the sky. The stars were bright. I watched for shooting stars and saw none, but would not call it a disappointment… rather, a study. Before the dawn, I rolled over and could sense the dampness of the dew that had gathered over the night. I stepped outside and ran in the house to press “brew” on the coffee pot (a benefit of back yard camping!) and then returned to my sleeping bag to listen to the dawn chorus. Wrens, sparrows, robins, finches. A woodpecker knocked on a hollow tree sounding a marimba morning anthem. A cow at the farm a mile over sounded a low moo. Two crows squawked a noisy message that was bratty sounding. The slight breeze offered a soft meditation. It was glorious.

back yard camping

I’m hoping that June will offer an adventure that will lead me into the woods and out of my backyard, but there’s more travel on the calendar and the visit of the Presiding Bishop, and a few other things. If I don’t get to the woods, I know that just off of our deck is a spot that offers me a quick overnight dose of peace and restoration.

Until next time…

be well.

close call

There is a sweet 3.75 mile loop around our neighborhood that I like to walk in the early mornings. It is not my only route, but it is a good length and on pleasant roads with some pretty views. This morning I walked it for the last time for a while.

Back Story

When I was about 3, my older brother Peter, 5, and I were playing in our neighbor’s yard. We lived in the caretaker’s cottage on a large estate in Rye, NY. The neighbor’s house was a few yards away from ours. It was a modern ranch style house and I think that one of the groundskeepers for the estate lived there with his family. I don’t remember the children in the family, but I do remember frequently sitting on their sunny cement stoop eating oreos and drinking milk that someone must have given to us. The house of the groundskeeper and our cottage were at the end of a long elm-lined road with a cul de sac. The estate had horses and farm land and a big plantation-style house at the top of the hill. I don’t know who lived there and legend has it that this farm was the original site planned for the United Nations… until it wasn’t.

My brother and I played in the haystacks and picked ripe tomatoes from the garden and climbed on the white fences that lined the property and defined the yards.

One day, as we were playing outside, one of the German Shepherds from the big house chased us, snarling and growling all the while. I remember struggling to climb up onto the lowest slat of the white fence to get away, and I remember my brother’s jeans caught between the teeth of the dog. That’s it. Since then- 60 years hence- I have been afraid of dogs.

This Morning

Moments after I took this pretty picture, I rounded the corner and came up on the rise of the hill at the one busy road on my path.

I was listening to the Morning Prayer broadcast from the Washington National Cathedral and thinking about my daughter Emma, who turns 35 today. I was listening to Dean Randy Hollerith go on about the Gospel of John and the lesson for today. I didn’t see the Great Dane until he was 12 feet from me.

I was across the road, on the edge of the cornfield. The Great Dane was in his front yard, barking, and then in the road, snarling, and then at my side. His owner- a young guy in a camo baseball cap and navy blue hoodie- was moving a little too slow for my comfort in his attempt to retrieve the dog. It’s a dangerous spot on the road. A blind hill. A dump truck screeched to a halt at the rise. The dog snapped at my leg and, just as I pulled a Tippi Hedren and shrieked, covering my face with my hands, the dog owner caught the collar of the dog and pulled him down.

Now, I know that Tippi was attacked by birds, and not by a dog… and that she had on a smart tailored suit with a short jacket and pencil skirt and that I looked like a vagrant with tie dyed leggings and a too-big sweatshirt… but in the moment that I shrieked, her image came to me. It was comical, really- Tippi Hedren, The Dean of the National Cathedral whispering in my ear about Jesus, and a giant mean dog, all back lit by a beautiful Central Pennsylvania sunrise.

I had one of those out of body experiences as I watched myself walk down the hill away from this scene. The dump truck driver put his truck back into gear, the dog was hauled off to his house, and I continued on my way. Only, my heart was beating out of my chest, my mouth was bone dry, and I was shaky.

It would have been nice if the guy had said something like, “I’m sorry.”

I missed the end of Dean Hollerith’s sermon.

I stuffed my ear buds in my pocket and headed home, thinking about why I am afraid of dogs.


The Day my Face Fell and the Buddha broke- but not in that order.

The Day my Face fell.

It was March 2, 2022.  If you know me and have been watching, you might give this event an earlier date, but first noticed that my face fell on the same day as the big hunks of ice on the side of the driveway slid down its ample incline, finally giving way from the warmth of the sun;  It was also the day after Ash Wednesday, so that might have had something to do with it, too.  Lent can do strange things to you.

My face falling, though, wasn’t completely surprising. It was inevitable.  I am 63 after all.  

I haven’t worn makeup in a couple of years.  I gave it up for the pandemic.  My eyelashes are thinning, my eyebrows are also sparse, and the deep lines above my upper lip that disclose years of smoking in my early adulthood have been around for a while. My hair has always been dark but now, what there is left of it, (also thinning) is more salt than pepper.  

But my face.  My cheeks. My neck. My eyes.  It all just – sagged.  And it seemed to happen on one day.

I’ve read female humorists on the subject- Erma Bombeck and Nora Ephron both come to mind, and they are hilarious. But when it happened to me, it wasn’t so funny.  

I felt like one day I looked ok, and the next, like the hag that waits outside of the Gingerbread House waiting to lure little Hansel and Gretel in for a look at the inside of her oven.

Wearing a mask for two years has either kept my face up, or it has hidden its truth from me. 

The masks are off, now (except for my trips to the grocery store- I’m not quite sure why) and it’s a little disconcerting. Does everyone see what I see?

Last night my husband took an adorable picture of my big tom cat Wobbles sitting on my lap. He shared it on Facebook.  (He’s in some special group for Episcopal Cat lovers. Yes, he is.) When I saw it all I could do was zoom in on my turkey neck and laugh lines and the jowls that hang over my shirt collar.  Good Lord.

My mother aged beautifully.  Tall, stick thin, hair always permed and combed out, neat nails, impeccable wardrobe, and a slick of lipstick. She looked great.  Her face fell, too, but only her cheeks.  There was a soft hollow on each side of her face that my children used to stroke as toddlers, sitting in her lap. They would make little plump fists and fit them right into the hollow of her cheeks.

There’s a war in Ukraine.  There’s a new variant of the virus.  I have 4 sermons to write for Holy Week.  I will get over this or forget it.


The Day the Buddha Broke.

One time, about 25 years ago, we went out for dinner at the local Chinese restaurant in Brunswick, Maine. We were visiting my mother, as we often did on school holidays, and a trip out for dinner with our three kids in tow- toddlers at the time- was a big excursion.  I remember some others, too, joining us.  My brothers?  Sister?

The restaurant had a buffet which we all eschewed.  This was before sneeze guards, and the place was packed. Vacationers in Vacationland.  We looked down on them, I think, which make no sense at all, since we also had traveled to Maine for vacation.  Did it make a difference that we were staying at my mother’s house, in her guest room with the twin beds and old wash basin and pitcher?  

After the chop suey and General Tso’s chicken and Moo Shu pork and Mai Tais, we made our way to the car. Cars.  Surely, we had more than one vehicle for our multiple children and extended family.  My mother paid the bill at the counter. The hostess pushed her credit card with its bumpy, raised figures through the machine on the top of the counter, pressing a receipt through carbon paper and making two copies- one for my mom to sign and leave with them, and another as her receipt.  I waited with my mom as she worked this through, and I studied the many small buddha figurines in the glass case of the hostess stand.  There was a shrine just behind the cash register, with a larger buddha figure, a small bubbling fountain, some silk flowers and three oranges, balanced carefully in a triangle.  The little buddhas in the case were for sale.  I hurried my mom out to the car and, at the door, told her that I’d be right along, I was going to use the restroom.  She made her way out and I returned to the glass case and inquired about the buddhas.  

I bought a 2-inch golden buddha.

I don’t know why.  It seemed funny at the time, but I’m embarrassed to say that now.  The buddha was shiny and fat and had a grin on his face.  He held his hands up over his head, making the round of his belly look even rounder.  He fit in the palm of my hand, and I held him with my fingers closed around him all the way back over the causeway to my mother’s island home.

The next morning I woke early, but not earlier than my mother.  She was already at her perch in the kitchen, sitting in her cotton robe drinking coffee and watching the gulls and crows on the rocks at the water’s edge. The radio crackled in the background with the morning news.

I took the buddha from my pocket and, when my mother was not looking, I put it on the small shelf just over the kitchen counter.  His shiny gold eminence surveyed the heart of this home.

My mother didn’t notice the buddha for some time.  Grandchildren were waking, bottles and cereal were being prepared, breakfast was at full tilt.

When she did notice the buddha, she laughed.   There was no joke, really.  But it was funny.  

Today, it would be inappropriate- a  culturally and religiously insensitive act to appropriate a religious figure for the sake of a joke- and what was the joke, anyway?  That a Christian home would have such an object?  It seems stupid, now.

But my mother, it turned out, loved the buddha.  He stayed on that shelf for years surveying her coming and going.  When my mother moved off Great Island and into town to live in an apartment off of my sister’s house, she brought the buddha.  He took up residence on the windowsill over the kitchen sink.  He watched her coming in and her going out.

When my mother died, ten years ago, I took the buddha.  I don’t remember if I asked my sister for it, or if I just took it.  But the buddha came to Connecticut with me and sat on my kitchen windowsill, watching my coming ins and my goings out.  When we moved to Pennsylvania, buddha came along.  Our new house had a small pop out window over the kitchen counter with a shelf for plants – a mini greenhouse.  Buddha sat there- along with a stone robin, a clay pinch pot made by my youngest daughter when she was in kindergarten, and a few colored glass bottles.

One day not long ago, the shelf fell down.  The cat tried to jump up onto the shelf and it did not hold her weight.  All was well, but the buddha’s little raised fist broke off.

I threw the buddha in the trash.  I could not abide its brokenness and did not want it to suffer the indignity of super glue and a permanent crack.  And so, I said goodbye to the buddha.  It broke my heart as I heard myself  saying out loud, “It’s only a thing.”


vegan weeks 10, 11, 12

airports, conference center dining halls, missing my kitchen

I’ve been traveling. For the first time since before Covid, the “House of Bishops” gathered in person for our semi-annual meeting.  The “House” is made up of all the bishops in the church who are currently serving and those who are retired (“resigned”).  Twice a year, all those who are currently serving and some of the resigned bishops who are available, get together for study, prayer, worship and fellowship.  For our meeting last week, we gathered at a diocesan camp and conference center, Camp Allen, that is an hour north of Houston.  The skies were bright blue, the temperatures were in the mid to high seventies, the spring flowers were in full bloom and the morning chorus of songbirds were a living soundtrack for our morning walks.  It was joyful to be together again, to see old friends and to meet new ones (there were many new bishops among us who had been elected and consecrated since our last in-person meeting).

I called ahead to ask about their kitchen’s ability to provide for a “plant-based diet.” 

 I was assured that it was not a problem.

And it wasn’t.

There was almond milk and soy milk for our coffee.  There were salads with olive oil and vinegar for dressing. The menu posted at the head of the buffet line each night noted what items were suitable- if at all-  for Vegetarians, Vegans, and those following a Gluten-free diet.  And, at the bottom of the menu on some nights, there was a single line that said: “Vegan Option available.”  The few of us in the House who follow a vegan diet learned to ask politely: “Vegan Option, please,” and that triggered a mysterious process where one of the servers disappeared into the kitchen and, a few minutes later, returned with something on a plate, sliding it to us under the sneeze guard.  At first, this caused a great hold-up as the non-Vegans politely waited in line behind the plant-eaters.  We soon learned to detour the others around us and to minimize the kerfuffle. We never were told what our vegan plates would deliver- it was kind of exciting to see what would appear each night.

I appreciated the camp’s kindness to those of us who, living in cattle country for a week, eschewed their well-aged meats and bacon and fried chicken and catfish… and put ourselves in their hands.

Of the plant-based meals, I discovered that there were three basic options:  1) chicken-like fingers that were deep fried, 2) beef-like material that was very versatile 3) a round patty masquerading as a fish cake.  All of these items were, I think, wheat based.

The chicken fingers came one night with a side of BBQ sauce and beans, cowboy style.  On another night they paired up with some sweet and sour sauce, nestled next to a scoop of white rice with peas and scallions, Asian style.  And on a third occasion, they had spaghetti sauce and vegan cheese on them, going for an Italian themed “chicken parmesan.”

The beef showed up one night as a good ole’ hamburger in a bun.  On another night it came crumbled over pasta with a red sauce and basil, and on a third evening- our final banquet at which most diners had giant rib eye steaks from real cows- we had the burger patty presented “Salisbury Steak style” with sauteed mushrooms and onions on top.  It was actually pretty good.

The fish cake? It only showed up once, on a bed of mashed potatoes.  I’m not complaining.

But here’s the thing:  there was a lot of other food in that dining hall.  TONS of food, literally, set out for us all to enjoy:  Chocolate cake with frosting. Peach cobbler. Garlic bread. Broccoli with cheese. Corn muffins. Macaroni and Cheese.  Ice cream.  None of it vegan-friendly.  

When one adopts a plant-based diet, there is more that is erased from the menu than meaty main dishes.  All those sides made with eggs, milk, butter, cheese, honey… they were off limits, too, and it was hard not to eat them.  

I made a couple of “mistakes.”  I took a corn muffin one day and, after the first bite, realized that it probably had eggs and milk in it.  I bit into a garlic breadstick and discovered that there was parmesan cheese dusted on it.  I didn’t finish either of these items, but put them down and felt sorry for myself.  I love bread.

Flying to and from camp was also an adventure. The one slightly intriguing restaurant in the Atlanta airport that might have been a good choice, “Garbanzos,” was shut up tight, its metal grate pulled down and locked.  No beans for me. I ate my Larabar pulled out of the bottom of my purse, and couldn’t wait to be back in my kitchen.

I always miss my kitchen when I travel.  Cooking is my primary hobby- along with hiking which burns off the calories from the kitchen- and I miss the creative opportunity to create meals each day.

When I got home I headed to the grocery store.  Kale. Asparagus. Peas. Black beans. Rotini. Tofu. Almonds. Cashew yogurt. Oat milk. Carrots. Broccoli. Green beans.  Ahhh.

Lest this all sound like vegan whining, let me say that I learned a lot.  I learned about the generosity and graciousness of a camp staff to accommodate a diet that is not contextual, I learned more about my “why” of veganism, and how the “why” informs the practice.  I could have eaten the rest of that corn muffin.  No one would have noticed.  I’m not allergic to eggs or milk.  But I thought about my first “why” (seeking to make a radical change that can strengthen me, spiritually and mentally) and my evolving “whys” (environmental benefits of plant-based eating, health benefits for my body) and I was glad for the opportunity to deepen my resolve and my practice.

I also went horseback riding at camp on our free afternoon.  In the past I have done the trail rides at camp without blinking. This time, as I rode through the piney forests, I wondered how this practice would be regarded by those following a vegan lifestyle.  To vegans, animals are friends, and they are to be respected and not to be used for entertainment. That’s why vegans eschew rodeos and zoos.  This was a little different than pushing the uneaten corn muffin to the side of the plate.  I couldn’t really jump off old “Shaq” and tell him to make his way back to the barn without me because I’d had a sudden vegan-epiphany.  And so we rode on, and I patted his neck, all shiny and warm from the sun, and I thought kind thoughts about the work that he was doing lugging me up and down the hills of our trail in the soft red dirt.  Thanks, Shaq.

I’m learning.  I’m growing. It’s an adventure.


Here are some pics from my walks at camp, most of which took place before dawn. And a shot of my first night’s dinner back home.

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Rotini pasta with peas, pea shoots, asparagus and cashew cream. Roasted carrots and parsnips.

my love-hate affair with running

and vegan adventures week 9

I was in my forties when I started running. Oh, I’d done a few laps around the campus in college (on my way to buy a fresh pack of Marlboros, no doubt) and during the Jane Fonda exercise craze of the early 8os I think I bought some leg warmers and jogged up the hill from our house as a warm up for an aerobics workout that I would do in front of our 12 inch tv in the living room, and I remember one really pathetic day on which I parked my newborn in a stroller in the center of the soccer field at our middle school and ran laps around her as she slept and I tried to run off my postpartum gut. To recall these events makes me squirm. But worst of all are my memories of being the fat kid in grammar school on the days in which we were subjected to the annual “President’s Physical Fitness Test” which included “running” a mile (I walked most of mine), “climbing” the gym rope (my feet never left the ground), doing chin-ups (no way) and being weighed on a scale that the nurse dragged in to the gym. As the nurse got us each to step up on to the scale for the weigh-in, she shouted the results to her assistant who recorded them, mortifying those of of us who weighed more than any President thought we should, in the process. Needless to say, I was not one of the kids who went home at the end of the day with a certificate (suitable for framing) with a shiny gold medallion and the President’s signature.

Oh, the cruelties of youth.

I met a friend when I was in my late thirties who lived in our town and had opened a gym. The gym offered aerobics classes, weight classes, step and spinning classes and had all the treadmills and weight machines you could hope for. The gym closed after awhile when my friend decided to spend more time at home with her children, but she gave me a gift that I will always cherish: she moved a bunch of the equipment from the commercial gym into her garage and invited a group of about 6 of us (5 women and 1 man)- all neighbors and friends- to workout each morning with her. At her house. For free. Under her fitness tutelage. It lasted for a decade. These early mornings (we started at 5:30) got me through seminary, through the hard years of my early ministry, through parenting, and all the stresses and foibles of life. We also celebrated birthdays, children’s milestones, anniversaries, holidays and successes at work. We were a great group together.

This friend- Laura- got me started in running. Together, we trained for my first half marathon. When we crossed the finish line that October, I looked at her and said,”Next, we do the full marathon!” I trained and ran several marathons in my time and always loved it- when it was done.

Here’s the “hate” part of the love-hate affair: I don’t actually like the act of running, itself. It is hard. I lose my breath. But worse than the physical stresses of running, are the mental stresses of it- the voice that tells me I am too slow…. that I have no business being out there… that I’m not improving The eyes that look ahead to how far I have to go still, and that do not look back at how far I’ve already come. I don’t feel a sense of peace or accomplishment in the moment. I don’t feel like I’m running with the wind. I feel old and slow and plodding. I feel regret that I didn’t do this kind of thing when I was younger and more lithe. (Regret like this is pretty useless.)

One time I had an amazing experience while running. I was down on the river trail in our town in CT. I loved running there. It was a 6 mile out and back from our driveway to the far end of the Burlington section of the trail and back. The Farmington River was clean and quiet and a lovely companion along the way. One morning as the sun came up over the mountain, I sensed that someone/thing was with me. I looked to my right and, running along with me, on the shoulder of the trail, was a large doe. It was amazing. She and I stayed together for probably 25-30 paces before she darted up the embankment and across the road. I was stunned and delighted; I wondered if I had imagined it, but I could see her up on the other side of the road, making her way up the hill. I doubt that she was as delighted as I had been at our chance encounter.

I held onto all of the trophies and medals and awards that I got for running in 5ks, half and full marathons. They are still in a box in our basement. I think I’m ready to get rid of them now but for a long time, they were a visible reminder of accomplishing the very thing that 55 years ago, puffing my way around the gym past a teacher with a stopwatch, I could not do very well. I still can’t do it very well, but I have done it… to completion… several times.

This morning I finished an eight-week training program for running a 5K. I used a program by an old runner, Hal Higdon, whose training programs I have used for years. In the weeks that I’ve increased my mileage from running just a couple of miles in fits and starts to this morning, I have to say that I have not improved in time or attitude. I’ve gotten it done (because I thrive on calendars and plans and schedules) but it has not “sparked joy.” I do love the feeling of being sweaty and completing a run; the jury is still out if the half hour or so that it takes me to get that way is worth it. The health benefits of walking and running are not so different, it turns out. It takes me just about an hour to walk 4 miles and during that time I get to listen to books. When I run, I listen to the same 1960s and 1970s playlist and to my defeating self talk. So- we’ll see what’s next. In my immediate future, I think it’s a few weeks of only walking.

In vegan adventures, I made some delicious bread this week. It had molasses, whole wheat flour and oatmeal in it. I used it as a base for some homemade baked beans with coleslaw on the side. All vegan. So good. Hearty winter treats.

I also made a “Thanksgiving dinner” comfort food meal featuring mashed potatoes, shiitake gravy, air fried tofu, over roasted broccoli and cranberry sauce. Comfort food. What’s not to like? Until next time, be well.

vegan week 8


It’s occurred to me how much I’ve been gravitating towards “ethnic” foods as we’ve adopted a vegan or “plant based” diet. The map above (and the interesting blog that accompanies it- see below) feature a whole lot of foods that are not especially good for you. Oh, they’re tasty, but not great for heart health, sodium levels, cholesterol, etc.

The American diet is, of course, derived from lots and lots of different ethnic diets- Cajun shrimp, PA Dutch/German waffles&chicken, Pirogies, Tex Mex burritos, to name a few- but we seems to have kept the unhealthy parts and tossed out the rest! And so, when I’m searching for healthy vegan offerings, I find myself turning to Asian cuisine, or Middle Eastern cuisine- for a lighter, plant-based option.

This week, for example, we enjoyed summer rolls. I shoved a whole lot of crunchy veggie goodness into some rice wrappers along with some tofu and we feasted on them, along with some delicious dipping sauces like Thai red chili sauce, peanut sauce, and tamari. I know… the sauces aren’t especially good for you but… everything in moderation?

summer rolls with tofu and veggies

Another revelation is that this blog theme- Vegan week 1, 2, 3, 4,5… might be wearing thin. (Not for me, of course, but this is a blog, not a journal.). And so I might slow down the vegan themed roll on the blog to a monthly check in (Vegan month 1, 2, 3, etc.) instead of a weekly chronicling. There are some interesting adventures ahead- like a 10 day trip to the House of Bishops in March at Camp Allen in Texas where, to celebrate on our last night, they always dress up the dining hall with tablecloths and candles and feed us steak- and another bishop’s consecration dinner in early March that gives one a choice of beef or fish in the rsvp but also notes that one could request a vegetarian meal … (What will they do with “vegan,” I wonder?). So, some interesting social experiments ahead, but other than that, the day-in day-out life in my kitchen might not be so exciting…

Well. A busy day ahead. Paperwork, a General Convention committee meeting, a retirement dinner and then a drive a couple hours north to a hotel to get me 2 hours closer to tomorrow visit to a church 4 hours away.

Be well.

random thoughts to myself on a Thursday morning walk


when the audio book ended and my mind was my own

Upon passing a contractor’s sign, pushed over by the wind (?) at the edge of a lovely, empty field: “Whoever pushed over this sign cannot stop the inevitable creep of development. Sorry, chipmunks who play in the stone fence, mice who wind their way through the tall grasses, foxes and deer and groundhogs who find their home here. Sorry.”

Upon catching up after many months with a neighbor friend who walks his dog on the same path every morning (It is I who have changed my route and have intentionally thwarted our daily encounters): “I’m sorry that I haven’t been by. I miss having friends. I miss conversations.” (This brought a feeling of profound loneliness in my chest.)

Upon hearing from my neighbor about the herd of deer and litter of fox kits in our shared woods: “I am not quiet enough. There is life all around me. Teeming. Pay attention.”

Upon feeling dulled and knowing that Lent is around the corner: “Should I quit social media this Lent? Should I quit all screen time? TV? Netflix? Should I read instead? What about that same spiritual tome that I picked up, literally, 25 Lents ago- and have never finished. Is this the year?”

Upon seeing my house just down the street, anticipating the six hours of zoom on my calendar, wondering if I can get away with wearing jeans today, imagining a difficult conversation ahead, and wondering if there are enough left over vegetable and tofu summer rolls to bring for lunch: “It will all get done. I can think about my sermon in the shower and work out my video idea in the car. Time is too short and ideas are elastic. “

Upon walking into the dining room past the vase of tulips that gave up the ghost days ago: “You were so pretty. You still are.”

vegan week 7

more of the same- it is midwinter, after all.

Seven weeks in- that’s almost 50 different dinners- and, I can attest that while I see some patterns emerging, I haven’t repeated a (dinner) meal yet.

For all those who think that Veganism is a restrictive and limiting way to eat, I’d say that while the list of things that we’ve cut out (chicken, fish, beef pork, eggs, cheese, milk, etc) is huge… what remains is tremendous in variety. There are enough different fruits, veggies, grains, herbs and legumes to keep me busy for a loooooong time in the kitchen.

Emerging patterns: lots of food prep on Mondays (nothing new there), repeated breakfast favorites (I seem to like smoothies on days that I’m going to drive to work, and hot cereal on days when I’m home), sheet pan dinners and the wonder of sauces! Three new sauces that have come into my life on a regular basis are a cilantro-“yogurt”-garlic sauce, a creamy cashew-based sauce, and a spicy chipotle “mayo”-like sauce. One of these three on top of a sheet pan veggie dinner with a grain of choice (quinoa, farro, brown rice) is such an easy way to get dinner on the table. It’s super easy if all the veggies are already cut up and waiting in ziplocks in the veggie drawer! Here’s one that looks, as it turns out, like a study in earth tones:

Other dishes on the menu this week included a sweet potato- spicy glazed pecan-roasted red pepper-bowl, a ramen dish made with miso, shiitake, tofu, bok choy and scallion, black bean burgers with avocado (they were too squishy. Next time I think I’ll oven fry them for a crispier crust) and homemade pizza with plant-based “pepperoni,” veggies and vegan “cheese.”

Other adventures in the “more of the same” category this week included more time on the AT. The AT is our covid-companion. Glenn gets out more than I do, often logging 3 or 4 days a week on the section of trail near our house… I shoot for one day a week and keep closer to home (and on blacktop) for my pre-dawn ventures. Here are a few out-of-door shots from this week:

In spite of all this healthy eating and fresh air, I’m feeling a wee bit “winter weary.” Or maybe it’s “Covid-weary” or, who knows. .. I did notice while filling up the bird feeders this morning that the daffodils are 2 inches out of the ground already. Huzzah!

Until next time, be well!